Life is full of adventure and once you open yourself up to it, it just sometimes takes you away.
I've learned when you shut the door to even the smallest things it has a domino affect and we don't realize just how much it impacts what's in store for us. When we become closed to one thing, we don't remember it's tied to everything else that makes us who and what we are. We shut down on love because it did us wrong, but in doing that we harden our heart, we forget how to smile, the world turns gloomy and everything starts to turn dark and spiral downhill. One simple door closes all the other ones and takes all positive possibilities with it. Opening and accepting what's happening, changing it around and looking at it differently starts making other doors open, makes opportunities possible, shows you how to smile through the tears and brings you forward and let's wonderful things come to you. So you can see not everything falls apart if you just keep your door open, even a tiny bit.
I found these beautiful new beginnings, when I left the door open this time around instead of shutting it closed and shutting myself down with it. A beautiful thing happened when I learned that if I just let it go, keep moving forward, smiling and laughing, my domino affect will only bring new things because it starts with me and how I deal with them.
Being happy and leaving things behind doesn't make you want to close the door, it makes you want to keep opening windows.
Friday, November 16, 2012
Monday, November 12, 2012
Watching Over Me
I do believe that there are angels in our lives that watch over us.
At times it seems things continually fall apart, I think it's a test to see how strong they know I am and to see how I'll overcome the obstacles. Then there are times that they rise up and show me they haven't forgotten and are still by my side watching over me, making me push myself and never give up. It's their reward to me.
My Aunt strongly believes that white cars are angels, they ride the roads and take care of us. After months of searching for a car, with no hope insight, it was either the wrong price or mechanical issues, I was about to call it quits. When at the end of a frustrating day a call was returned to me to come take a look at a car, it was perfect and it was 'White'. I believe my grandparents made sure they would be riding with me everyday. For years of interviewing, wild hunts and madness, it was always for an Accounting position and they never panned out. But with an angel boss watching over me, believing in me and pushing me through, the exact job that I was skilled to do, because of her, came through and is now mine. I know she never gave up on me, during those last moments of her life she knew I never gave up on her.
I now have found a balance, an appreciation for the little things, the fragrance of flowers, a letter or note and a certain feeling in my soul that I've found love. My grandparents always taught me that the little things are the things that count the most, always remember to take time to smell the roses.
So do I believe that these people that I loved so very much are still with me?
Yes, I Do. And I believe and am so thankful to have them as the angels that watch over me and make me strong and make me remember just how much they still love me. Thank You.
Dedicated To: Grandma & Grandpa Casanova, Helene and Grandma Betty & Grandpa Tom. I Love You all so very much.
At times it seems things continually fall apart, I think it's a test to see how strong they know I am and to see how I'll overcome the obstacles. Then there are times that they rise up and show me they haven't forgotten and are still by my side watching over me, making me push myself and never give up. It's their reward to me.
My Aunt strongly believes that white cars are angels, they ride the roads and take care of us. After months of searching for a car, with no hope insight, it was either the wrong price or mechanical issues, I was about to call it quits. When at the end of a frustrating day a call was returned to me to come take a look at a car, it was perfect and it was 'White'. I believe my grandparents made sure they would be riding with me everyday. For years of interviewing, wild hunts and madness, it was always for an Accounting position and they never panned out. But with an angel boss watching over me, believing in me and pushing me through, the exact job that I was skilled to do, because of her, came through and is now mine. I know she never gave up on me, during those last moments of her life she knew I never gave up on her.
I now have found a balance, an appreciation for the little things, the fragrance of flowers, a letter or note and a certain feeling in my soul that I've found love. My grandparents always taught me that the little things are the things that count the most, always remember to take time to smell the roses.
So do I believe that these people that I loved so very much are still with me?
Yes, I Do. And I believe and am so thankful to have them as the angels that watch over me and make me strong and make me remember just how much they still love me. Thank You.
Dedicated To: Grandma & Grandpa Casanova, Helene and Grandma Betty & Grandpa Tom. I Love You all so very much.
Sunday, November 4, 2012
Suddenly
When you're not really looking or ready, things happen...Suddenly.
When you think it's time to give up, go backwards, look away or just give in...Something happens...Suddenly. And you don't know why, how or when, but it happens.
At times when I just feel like giving up and dropping down to my knees, there's a sudden thought of hope. A feeling of something, I can't explain, it just happens. And suddenly I feel like things will work out or be ok. It may be a call, a song on the radio, a chat with someone or something you read. It's that little something that gives hope and a sudden rush of calmness, even if for a brief fleeting moment, it crosses through you, it brings on the next step of moving forward and not giving up.
I think I've gotten to the point where my moment has come, it's calmed me (or maybe it's believing in the meds.) one way or the other it's happen, it's come into play. And I'm finally content. There's still so much that needs to happen, be addressed, to be figured out, but it's one step at a time, maybe they're little steps but it's a start. One foot in front of another and just keep moving. And I'm happy.
Stepping into the right direction one moment at a time and suddenly I feel like I'm on the right path ahead, not falling behind but going forward and making things better.
Suddenly, I feel...
Like Me.
When you think it's time to give up, go backwards, look away or just give in...Something happens...Suddenly. And you don't know why, how or when, but it happens.
At times when I just feel like giving up and dropping down to my knees, there's a sudden thought of hope. A feeling of something, I can't explain, it just happens. And suddenly I feel like things will work out or be ok. It may be a call, a song on the radio, a chat with someone or something you read. It's that little something that gives hope and a sudden rush of calmness, even if for a brief fleeting moment, it crosses through you, it brings on the next step of moving forward and not giving up.
I think I've gotten to the point where my moment has come, it's calmed me (or maybe it's believing in the meds.) one way or the other it's happen, it's come into play. And I'm finally content. There's still so much that needs to happen, be addressed, to be figured out, but it's one step at a time, maybe they're little steps but it's a start. One foot in front of another and just keep moving. And I'm happy.
Stepping into the right direction one moment at a time and suddenly I feel like I'm on the right path ahead, not falling behind but going forward and making things better.
Suddenly, I feel...
Like Me.
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