Saturday, November 13, 2021

East Coast to West Coast

 Two years and 10 months ago we found each other...two souls looking for a partner, to share love, laughs and memories.  Little did we know that we would only be together for a short time before the east coast would call you back for a more permanant location.  The wolrd of time we shared I was a princess, your boo, your baby, your singing in bed muse, and my life was better with you in it. We laughed, we smiled, we shared stories, I cried, I got drunk, you always took care of me...you were My Hero and falling in love with you was the easiest fall of my life.  And away it went...and I was lost, lonely, and sad.  I couldn't find a balance for me which meant not being able to find the balance of Us.  Love was not lost but pushed down deep inside so I didn't have to face the fact that you were gone and I couldn't deal with being away from you for that long.  I pretended to walk forward, to fill my time, though your memory pulled at my heart and never stopped.  I ached deep inside without you, an absence nothing could fill, there was a part of me that was broken, but still I continued to move forward and push it down, deeper, deeper and deeper.

Until one day...a year ago the only person I wanted to talk to, that I needed most, that was weighing in my mind, heart and soul was a call away and I needed to make it.  I needed to hear your voice, I needed to hear you say it's ok Baby, I Love You, I'm here.  That day I cried all the feelings that I had pushed down so deep and I had finally let my heart breathe.  I took down my wall, my ego, I let go of my pain and I knew I needed you back in my life, one way or another.  You let me fly, you never hold me down, you make see a better version of me and you love me unconditionally.

East Coast to West Coast, we said years ago we would see where it went, we would try to hold it together, we would find a way to make it happen.  I knew I threw those out when I built a wall, but when we reconnected it was like picking up from where we left off.  My wall was no longer there, my mind was open and willing, my heart feels less broken.

Us...the love we have can not be lost, being in your arms is like being home, the way we fit, the undeniable chemistry we have, the way you look at me and smile. L O V E

I have learned so much from our relationship: patinece, understanding, loving hard, being open and willing, and most of all knowing that YOU being in my life is something I will NOT ever give up again.  Who knows what our future brings, I just know I can't wait to see it with you.  East Coast to West Coast our times spent together are precious, meaningful, passionate, full of love and my goodness there is always singing.

YOU are my #DTLA #26floorsup #myboxingchamp #eastcoasttowestcoast #inthetikiroom

❤ BJ  11/2021 "my life is better with you in it, ten hundred ways that I can spend it. Oh, happy day ain't no pretendin' My world is better with you in it. You know whatever we go through Imma rock with you nothing can break us apart because, My life is better with you in it."  .major.

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