The Holidays

The holidays bring a mixture of emotions, everyone has something different that they feel.  Happiness, love, togetherness, cheer, loss, sadness, emptiness and loneliness, wherever you are in your life we can all feel.  No matter what emotion the holidays bring, you are entitled to feel any and everything you want and can.  Time is the only gage you have to heal, repair and continue, you alone have that and you can take all the time you need.  There's so much that goes on in our emotions and there's so much that goes on with loss, it's hard to jump back to the normal.  
Holidays bring a time of togetherness to continue making our memories and laughter with those from holidays before.  They also bring loneliness when we argue or disagree with those we are close to and we do not get to make a new memory of this year together.  They bring emptiness for those of us who have lost and all we have is the memory of the holidays before, cherishing those moments in our mind and keeping them close.  But during the holidays I reflect and give Thanks to those who loved so deeply in my life that they scarred my heart and it is too hard to forget.  I thank them for being there for me, I thank them for loving me so much that their love always kept me warm.  I'm grateful for what they shared with me, they shared themselves, the most important part of your life you could give to someone. I thank them for being with me for as long as they could, for holding on, and for sharing with me all the moments we had.  I thank them.  
And though my holidays or anyone out there can relate to having them without some of the people in our lives that are now gone, I can go through them and know that they are there with me in spirit to share every new moment I am having.  My pictures may be absent of someone who I Loved so dear, but my heart will be full thinking of how wonderful you would have felt being here.
With all my Love and Thoughts of you - not only during the holidays but every day of my life - Thank You.  Pudgy, Grandma & Grandpa