I open the door, I hesitate and still look down, walking slowly, and then realize you're not there. I keep thinking I need to rush home, there's something I need to do, someone I need to take care of. But you're not there. There's so many things, so many words, so many moments I want to recreate. I want to reset, I want another chance, I would give anything to have you back.
One chapter of loss and emptiness is one we can't bring back, it's the kind that's lost forever, the one that leaves us physically, the only thing here is the memories and the heartbreak.
It's the kind of loss that you will only meet again when you leave this world to go beyond the stars.
Second chapter is where you pass on the gift of love you have been accustomed to in order to make some one else's life whole, complete and happy. It's the kind the loss that you experience within your world but you've made the world of someone one else complete and full.
The first chapter hurts the way no other can, it's the emptiness you will never get over, death. The second chapter is the one you look forward to hearing about from the people you have shared your gift with, life.
In their own way there is a loss and emptiness that is hard to get through. Losing and letting go.
As I walk in the door, I stop, look down, hesitate and go slowly...
Then I realize you're not there...and my heart is broken, shattered on the floor, and I close the door behind me to slowly pick up the pieces.
5/2016
